Disappointment

hmmm sometimes i like to thoughful,
how fat I am, how ugly I am. I often not confident. i was envious of the women like my age, she has a slim body that can use all kinds of fashion. while I? NO I had a story recently about my experience with my body.
day after Lebaran, I am on vacation in Bandung with my family for 3 days. My intention was to bandung to shopping. and you know what? I am very hard to find clothing that fits me!
it's because my body weight too much, it really makes me disappointed. My mom just like me, she was also crazy shopping hmmmm she also has a good taste to select items. My mom is not stingy to buy something that suits for me. imagine from 3 days we've there and we've come a variety of factory outlets and boutiques there are lots of clothes does not fit with my body!
but, my mom and my brothers and my dad! have got a variety of clothing. and last day I have there I get a few things, and it was only 2 pairs of jeans and instead because I just got some clothes I asked my dad to buy other goods hehehehe:-D

My dad told me how if I follow the doctor programe nutritional diet like my mom used to, but I think it was not as easy as imagined. imagine, my mother used to eat only potatoes for breakfast and exercise at least 1 hour per day! exercise once a week it was very hard for me. My mom until now, she had avoided to eat beef or lamb. he did it also for health.

If I think, it's good for me, I will try diet programe. I hope I will success:-)

My Mind (Uneg-Uneg)

sorry I speak in English, I'm going out my mind. I know he's going to open my blog and I want him to know that I really don't like him। he always wanted to know about me, it makes me uncomfortable he is my ex-boyfriend, he's always bothered me as opened my twitter, opened my facebook, send a message to my friend and asked about me to her. I am very ashamed to my friend, sometimes I think that he did not know shame (sorry I speak like this) I even think he's crazy. he also likes angry unclear and accused me of not correctly! and
he always forbade me this and that, so who's he can forbid me? he was a nobody. I also know he may be telling my bestfriend "Annisa" about this. He didn't know how guilty I was at my mother because it has often lied to, I want to be a good girl and I'm very fond of my mother. aaaaaaaa!! I want to be free!! I want to do everything without you know or like to spy on